Monday, January 18, 2010
days like these make me feel not very special
I'm starting to feel sad again about everything. The rainy cloudy day doesn't help. And Jeff is back to work. while i sit at Jeff's moms and do nothing. I'm pathetic. I am actually very scared to get a new job. I have the worse anxiety. I think about how UN happy i will be if i get a job that i hate. I'm still mad that i lost my job that i loved. And in this big world i don't feel very special or cared for. Jeff is the only one or at least that's what if feels like. I feel like what i do in life never has been cool enough for people. My art i try and put it out there and people don't care. Some times its hard to have a purpose in life especially since no one shows any interest. I have felt this way since i moved to NE then AZ. When will i feel happy again.